Warner Brothers/Getty ImagesPurple Rain‘s leading lady, Apollonia Kotero, has written an open letter to her former lover and Purple Rain co-star, Prince.

“My Dear Prince,” the letter begins. “I have never known you to leave the stage so early. 4 long, dreadful months have passed since God welcomed you home,” Kotero continues.

“Grief, depression, anger and loneliness are like those bullies who taunted me in grade school. My life has been a vortex of rage and despair. Waves of sadness washing away the pieces of my broken heart. My own personal hell on Earth. I feel like your widow,” she added.

The agonizing note was posted by the actress on her Facebook page, one day before her panel appearance at the Purple Rain: Celebration film screening and discussion event at the Academy of Motion Picture Arts & Sciences in Beverly Hills, California.

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